Speechless...

He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak. Even youths grow tired and weary and young {wo}men will stumble and fall. But those that hope in the Lord {those that wait upon the Lord} will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagle. They will run and not grow weary; they will walk and will not faint. Isaiah 40:29-31
I was driving the car and the nameless faceless passenger in the car was a friend. No, it was an unmarked taxi. There was the driver in his seat and there was me and this nameless faceless friend. She was devastated. I consoled her as best as i could. The car stopped. I gave the faceless person some money and told her to take care...God knew best. I watch as she carried the body of her {brother/sister/mother/father/uncle...} relative. No, she was still standing by me when the body, wrapped in a body bag was moved. And then i woke up!!!
Time was 2:33am, on a weekday three weeks ago. I woke up shaken to the core. I picked up my Bible and ran into the loo and prayed. I had had dreams where relatives died but none left me with fear as strong and as tangible as this one. Probably because, there were usually faces to the dreams and i sorta knew how and to whom to channel the prayers to. This one had no face to it!!!
I chalked it up to the dead body i saw on Ikorodu weeks before but my heart wasn’t still at rest. I called my momma; though her palpitations have subsided to a reasonable extent, i still insisted she had an ECG done! Daddy was fine...healthwise. My siblings were not sick; my inlaws were doing great!
I prayed. I prayed as best as i could. But the fear would not leave me be. Depression, panic attacks, late night drinking...it was just toooo difficult to think about tomorrow.
Somehow, kinds words from friends and tweethearts and no-so-kind words from the hubby, managed to pull me back from the brink! I told myself, “You have prayed. You have cancelled. You are reading the Bible more. God just wanted to shake me up and remind me of whats important”. I made the effort to shake the mood off....
....this was Saturday 24th Sept, 2011
12:03pm Sunday, Sept 25, 2011 @sphinx640 pinged to find out whether we were still on for our retail therapy date at LPM Sept Edition. I replied that we were and that was when i saw the BBM Recent Update that had me rushing back to the brink....
ARIT HAS DIED!!!!
Shock, would be an understatement. I lack words.....totalllllly!!!! Arit was at work on Friday. Infact, i ran outta the office because she was hounding my unit about some accounts she gave us to work on. How is she dead???? HOW THE HECK IS SHE DEAD??????
HOW??????????????????????????????????
She was so strong. In the face of soooo many tragedies and losses, she smiled through. She bore them all; Her faith remained as strong as ever.
At a birthday party earlier in the year: L-R Arit, Lauretta and Stella


ARIT
AritKoKo, able Soldier, we miss you so much, colleagues and clients alike. You have fought your battles. Now rest on the Lord! REST IN PERFECT PEACE! AMEN!

14 comments:

HoneyDame said...

OH LORd! What is it with the increasing trend of death of youths these days? Has this always been the case but has only been made more public by the new social age? Christ, please have mercy!

Take care Hazel, the Lord will watch over us that remain. And He will provide succour to the ones she left behind

Anonymous said...

We will all miss Arit,different memories keep flooding into my head with each passing hour. I am still in shock , don't even know what to write. I pray God will comfort her family and each and everyone of us that knows and loves her. Maybe later I will come back to this page and write some of d times I spent with her. RIP Arit. Love from @sleekdemi and all of us at allen branch

uduak said...

so sorry about your loss, just two weeks back, I had a dream , someone I knew was involved in an accident and died, there was no face to the person too. I prayed and 2 days later my aunt died in an accident... am still in shock.God knows best

Luciano said...

so sorry about your loss.
The good lord will console you and the ones she left behind

sosa said...

RIP Arit! still cannot understand this...but God knows best. May God comfort her family IJN...Love Sosa

@ilola said...

Sorry for your loss. I pray the Holy Spirit will be a source of comfort to you and her family.

Toinlicious said...

Sorry about your loss dear. The rate at which pple av died dis year is just crazy. May God help us and keep us. first time here and following. you can check out my blog too http://www.toinlicious.blogspot.com/

Hazel said...

@HoneyDame, the thot has crossed my mind. I really want to believe it's the new social media craze cos THIS IS TOO MUCH!!!!

@Sleekdemi Kai, the reality of this death is yet to sink in! She will be greatly missed!

@Uduak, the guilt eh! I'm thinking "Did I pray enough? Why didnt I tell enough people to pray with me? If I did, could this loss have been avoided?" *sigh*. I'm so sorry for your loss too. God is your strength!

Hazel said...

@Luciano @ilola Thanx so much, guys.

@Sosa The shock eh....

@Toinlicious Thanx dear. And I love your blog. Following as soon as I get on my laptop!

Myne Whitman said...

Oh no, that must have been so devastating. I find it very shocking when young people die so unexpectedly.

May her soul rest in peace and God comfort her family.

Anonymous said...

So sorry for your loss, what happened to her??? was she sick or was it an accident which seems to be the rave of the moment now on how young pple die. So sad lost a cousin this yr and I havent still recovered from the loss. God is your strenght.

Anonymous said...

So sorry for your loss, what happened to her??? was she sick or was it an accident which seems to be the rave of the moment now on how young pple die. So sad lost a cousin this yr and I havent still recovered from the loss. God is your strenght.

Toinlicious said...

BTW, I just gave you the versatile blogger award in my latest post. Check it out and please pass it on.

Coy~Introvert said...

Heyy gave you an award on my blog, go get it!! :)